Designer: Manikka
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so the first 2 weeks of holidays have passed. man. we have vball trainin practically everyday. feelin my adrenaline drainin at e speed of light. feel so fatigued. these past two weeks was filled wif vball competitions. e results were quite ok i guess...can't be anymore contented. and today we had a match against yishun. almost lost. and one thing i cannot believe is- of all things i actually saw him there- at the venue of e vball competitions that is.

*****.

him. yea him. i just can't believe it. of all places i would see him there. here's how it went. i just reached hougang sports hall to put my bag down and watch people compete against each other. just sat down for a few moments when he and 2 other guys came in e door. was shocked and speechless. felt muhself go numb for a moment. couldn't really believe my eyes. i almost forgot about him and he just now appears. couldn't stop my eyes from lookin. how e hell did he come here? he seems to be able to play quite well...hmm...maybe. i couldn't stop muhself but look at him. hope it wasn't oblivious. later walked around his area. to catch a glance. guess ya should noe e motive rite? so an hour passed. and i walked around there several times. after dat we were supposed to warmup/dui gang. and we were fated to stand so near em. so steff and i dui gang. den l8er i can't help it but /switch where we were standin. muh position faced him directly. or his back that is. so i switched places wif steff. so i stood there. to hear his voice?!! hahax. and to avoid eye contact lest my eyes get glued to him and people suspect or he think i'm a looney? ya noe how embarrassed i was? when i was facin him i kept askin muhself not to make a fool of muhself and i think i did. a whole lot of shit. he must've feel so disgusted. and while my face was facin his direction i couldn't help myself to turn red. and i swear he recognizes me. with my freakin name behind and me lookin like a freak.. hair messy . perspirin so profusely. i'm sure i looked like an idiot. and another thing. why did he look at me and give me a weird look? argh! he looked at me so weirdly. for so long too. like 10 secs? my oh my and i blushed till i was as red as blood. ohhhh why do i have such an estranged fate? and idun remember his skool takin part in e competition so why would he be here?? and i almost bumped into him. ~!@$%^%^&*((()+_!!...... so e competion started after much awaitin. i dunno why but i would feel a twinge of sadness when his trio gang went out. and i would be on cloud nine when they came in! so in they came and out they went. i kept focusin my eyes on the doors. i was so nervous when he was inside e hall. and i swear he was lookin at me. go shit off. i tried my best that is. and i feel so argh when he leaves and so happy when he's in! when we were at e other court i could see him directly. ooooh. l8er he went out. and came back and stood at the door. and left eventually. when e match ended we went out and i tried lookin for him but to no avail could i. awww. and so then e story of me and my encounters takes an end in the chapter between ***** and cheri.


if only...

words can describe beyond my emotions. i'm elated. i'm jubilant. i've just aged one year and the feeling is awesome. the eve of my bday sucked. i cried three times. what can possibly make my eyes that wet? i don't cry that easily. well we were supposed to go to st. ignatius church and i was already prepared to go there as there were many shuai ge there. but my father said that we would have to take a look at the BBC (black belt club) b4 the church service and knowing this fact, i woke up deliberately at 11.45am. actually i awoke at 8.30 to go to church but i must go BBC, so i went back to dreamland and that really infuriated my dad. i told him the fact that i woke up l8 purposely so as to not go BBC. oh well. then at holy trinity, i met aaron and i stared at him for like the whole service? he was stil as jovial as can be and he was happily singing in the youth choir. the place where the choic stood was directly opposite of where i sat, thus giving me a clear picturesque of him. then he directed 2 songs, ya noe like the conductor. and he sucked. he didn't know how to do so so he just practically shaked his hands all the way. the other singers were laughing too. hahax

we went to eat lunch and my parents stil had not given me my present. when i mentioned indirectly to them my bday, they knew wad i was implying so they said that they weren't obliged to buy anything for me, having supported me for 13 years. ma birthday, 13 yrs old and i have nothing. that realy hit the soft spot of me and tears just rolled out of my eyelids, in front of the foodcourt, in front of everybody. my mother felt me and l8er she paid for my impromptu bday party. my auntie gave me a wallet and my dad gave me a pencil box. my grandma gave me S$50 and i bought a sling bag. thanks guys...i really appreciated that. and after all the phrase "cloud with a sliver lining" was true after all. so i celebrated my bday at my cousin's house.it was ok..and we played blind mice. i had to play a spot as i was the oldest. i can't possibly talk to them bout literature rite? so blind mice that it was their ages was 12,9,12,10. i was 13. the oldest haha oh well. that morning i was just mentioning to my dad how much i loved dancing. when they asked me at 3 if i wanted ballet or piano. i chose ballet yet my parents, piano. i had to listen to them and till this day i still love ballet and dancing as much as i can. i really have the potential to dance, mum, dad. i really do. then we listened to 1 hr of fong fei fei's songs. my aunt and mum are mad bout her and as she sang those lively songs, she asked my cousins and i to dance along with her. well i danced my normal self. and we went home about 10.00 pm. then at home my father said to me "when at auntie's house, u and ur cousins danced and u reallly could dance well, even it was impromtu. u danced as if u were trained or had learnt the dance. well maybe i should have sent u for ballet and classical dancing after all..." well it was too l8 i could have started at the tender age of 3 but it's too l8te. life's like this.

i went to school quite normally and received presents combined from jia wei, charmaine, zenda, felicia, wan qi, belinda, jodie, shaoyun. thanks guys. that's like the best gift i had received from all my friends so far. i was so touched...and i almost cried...yea.. and maybe after all monday was my best day. i had the highest for english, 67, which was like a surprise and maybe my bday gift? haha then science test came. i really studied hard. but it was last minute i tried my luck by spreading my science all over my bed and sleep on it. and it really worked afterall . i had 88 for science. maybe it was the charm from me by displaying my wsheets on my bed. hahax...i know that's lame but if something isn't realistic and yet u believe in its magic, it will infinitely work too. my science marks were 65 1/2, 74, then 88. i thought my marks would just fluctuate but it went up n i hope i can maintain it and maybe even get higher. my only problem was chinese. today was the best day of the year. i got presents from ppl i didn't to expect from and my academic results gave my a "present" too. not only one, but two! it's a real surprise. the world's simply a sui generis. thanks god thanks everybody thanks friends. i really love u. i really love you. though i would still hafta cope with my broken heart. thanks anyway