måndag, november 01, 2004
finally i'm here to blog. after several days. just got back results. kinda sucked. didn't expect myself to fare so badly. ALL my grades DE-proved. except like maths? i thought i'd get higher. perhaps it's my studyin style. perhaps it's just not correct. i almost went to temasek. but phew. guess i still have many more commitments, so decided not to leave chung cheng. but i dunno if i can still stay there in sec 3. oh well. when we got back our report books, i was kinda shocked. didn't expect my kinda results to get top among my classmates. whatta shock. but overall, our class' grades plummeted. last time our top got 6th in level, now only got 14th. and now everyone's level position dropped. i feel bad. after the mid-year exam lesson, i've tried to not show my happiness, only to be mistaken for showing off. so just pretend to be nonchalant- the secret to success among the bitches.
i have no idea why but i always seem to be gettin muhself into trouble. first i have quarells with my friends, esp. my GOOD friends as they appear to be. talkin bout that, shouldn't GOOD friends share your happiness, but instead, these GOOD friends of mine go around bitchin and talkin behind my back. so much for GOOD friends. these are truly not my GOOD friends. so peepz, ya know what? i do not care if you're my friends or not. it doesn't matter. ya guys are just a bunch of bitches taggin along my life. i dun give a damn of what you think bout me. i really h8 all of ya. ya seem to be so good when i'm down with ya all. but when i'm sad or wadeva, do ya care? NO. just to summarize it, ya guys only come to me when ya guys get into trouble. INGRATES. TRUE friends, huh. i promise not to make the same mistake ever- to make friends. like you. and now, even my parents and teachers say i have attitude problem. do i? man. i don't think i do.
another thing, i'm not dao, or proud. forget it all. ya can backstab me for all ya wanna. get as many followers as ya want. to form an "anti-cheri" club. if you think i'm bitchy, fine. i got INFLUENCED by ya. i dun wanna grow up bein a bitch and ah lian, who think smokin is nice. and actin cute's e success to life. in fact, i cringe when i see ya all act cute. puh-leese. ya think guys will get interested? even if how cute you may be, you'll still be the ugliest bitch i've ever seen.
i'm also not a flirt. i'm mainly more of a socializer. i've progressed to be from an anti-socialist to more of a socializer now. i do not flirt. get it clear. i know ya all are jealous of me because of my results and stuff. i dun not act cute to get more popular. unlike you. it's just cos you do not study, or to put it bluntly, STUPID AND DUMB, that you get poor results. hah. ya all claim to be true friends. news flash: friends do not get jealous of their fellow friends. get it? i noe ya get very ARGH when ya see me with guys. just name it-jealous. actin cute and nice is not the essence to life okay?
get a grip- my whole bunch of GOOD friends.