onsdag, december 22, 2004
heyyyrx
long time didn't blog already...missed ya lotsa!
well, instead of me elaboratin on my everyday stuff, lets see whats e 411 throughout these like 1 1/2 months. yea.
in this 1 1/2 months, these followin events happened to me
- tried to finish hol hw (well at least i have)
- had lotsa vball matches(and practices as well)
- saw sweetheart benji at e vball match. (i was sittin n turned my gaze. suddenly just saw someone with uncanny resemblance. benji!!! shocked, awestrucked. he stayed there for almost e whole match and i couldn't concentrate properly as he was like lookin??gave me funny look, as usual. at warmups he actually played with his friends and i was like opposite him...couldn't stand it...i mean like, argh, why must all these happen after i've like forgotten him? wadeva)
- went for holiday. coolness it was. met someone nice. friends too. but found out he was like 18??? yea
- had piano concert. at least efforts were quite paid off. 4 months of practice just gone in like, 2 mins. met some really nice peepz. best friend cum dotter was there. she pulled like, so many dudes!!! and even did a duet wif this violinist guy!!! how i envy her. but it's not like i wanna do a duet. yea get what i mean. dawgg? a lot of problemos after that. from dotter. got psycho freak stick on to her. so many guys got attracted to her. and me, like 0. wadeva. why's she so lucky? it's like she was so pure and i made her like that!!! argh you fuckin dotter. wanna father? mann....diff. mission.
- grandfather got hospitalised. and he's still in it now, only he went on to icu. from a normal ward to immediate care area to now intensive care unit. now, he's really in a super critical condition. have to wear gloves and gown and mask when visitin him(at e icu). really very worried and prayin very hard. many operations he had. i really feel the pain. had to be woken in e midnite to rush there, somethings cropped up. now when i visit him, just even SEE him, beads of tears would just come trailin down my eyes. can't help it. it's like not my fault? and he doesn't have much response. haix. and he doesn't open his eyes much. 2nd haix. i am feelin so down! even muh relatives are like cryin and extremely sad? i really hate to part with someone, esp. someone who's so lovin and carin and etc. and etc. towards me. just couldn't let it go. missed the times he went all the way just to visit me and buy for me 'pau'. gave me shoes that matched perfectly on my soled feet. missed the times family had so much fun eatin together, 'tuan yuan fan'. mooncakes. red packets. claypot rice that was served from my father's every year. COMPULSORY! but i dun even know if he can get to eat it again. 3rd haix. missed the glutinous rice that he makes. he would make it JUST FOR ME. just because I, i repeat, I asked for it. the taste is just simply divine and heavenly, and never forgotten. please......grandpa, you must really get well cos all muh cousins and i would wanna get red packets and celebrate CNY with ya. and i would relish to have the taste of your special glutinous rice melt in my tongue. please get well. tho i know the chances are very slim. you really must get well. i really do hope you can get well and see me walk on the path of life. please. i just wish to see you smilin in that photo we took weeks ago, not now stuck with fuckinseveralnumerouscountless machines in ya. really awful, painful, and makes my heart-painful!! 4th haix. get back to the healthy ya and get out of those awful machines and needles and everything!!!!!! i really appeal to you to get well once again...please...