fredag, februari 18, 2005
okay. enough with all the messin moanin whinin and bitchin. i'll start.what to say? i'm so hit. hit as in like bein whoooshed away with a gr8 force. ahiya if i explain further it'll be too purplexin to understand yea.
firstly, the results. goddamn it, i studied very hard and this is what i got? i mean, i put in pure 100% hard work and effort only to pass exactly. this' not e way it should be.
last year, when i was the MISS_PERFECTIONIST,with all the "WHOA!" results and "coolness!" life, i practically had everything my way. for the tests and exams last year, i didn't even put as much effort as this year, only to get like the class highest? and feelin not secure, i told myself not to be complacent but work hard for 2005. i've been doin so. but look at the marks? it's like you've never touched e textbook at all. so lets tabulate e results:
2004-didn't study-A1
2005-studied very hard-C6
is this how the way it should be? is there any wrong or correct studyin method? have i been on the right track? what i can i do to solve these problems? the questions go on...
this is so not fair!!! why can't i return to the same position and standard as last year and maintain it instead of havin all these plummet to ridiculous and awestruckin results?
i wanna go back to be the GOLDEN girl. to MISS_PERFECTIONIST. i dun wanna know that i'm droppin to where my PSLE marks should have been. no. i dun wanna lose my perfect position. no. i dun wanna lose to anyone. i wanna stay the same. i dun wanna give it away. i dun wanna give that honour and glory to someone else. i dun wanna disappoint my parents(what i'm afraid most). i dun wanna let myself down and see me walk the wrong path. i dun wanna be a failure in life.
million-$$$-reward question: how'm I gonna do that?